I've been sick all week, so I didn't get much of a chance to gather my thoughts and figure out what I really wanted to write... Actually, I did, but I couldn't pull that post together in time because it wasn't "talking" to me. This post was.
Summer really officially ends this week. Thank god. Fall is my favorite season. Look up any “basic white girl who loves fall meme” and it’s basically me. My life is in a period of significant change right now. It's both empowering and terrifying. I'm having some serious growing pains. However, I don’t think it could be happening at a better time of year. September is more my January than January is. It always reminds me of new textbooks and halloween candy. Fall is a time to start over. It’s harvest season. Things begin to die and trust me, there are some things that need to die.
As much as I want/need/asked for this change, I am having a hard time dealing with it. Change usually starts off very ugly and then you look back and say, "that was actually very beautiful". As much as I'm about embracing the ugly, I don’t do well with change. I don’t do well with in-betweens. As uncomfortable as I am, I refuse to re-enter my comfort zone. There are so many things I want to do, and I can feel that my season is coming. The universe is preparing me for something new and something huge. To quote a good friend, @drtyrock, “I've discovered so many hard truths this year. Looking forward to gaining more insight as this year begins to conclude. The change continues.”
I needed to gather my thoughts and wanted to focus on manifesting my goals, so I made a vision board. I’m posting it here for public accountability. And so you have a hint at where I think I’m going.